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Only 4 more days to go before the launch of this event  so excited I can’t sleep. Not that, I ever sleep around this time!? Will be handing a couple of flyers tomorrow around the local area. Next week my business cards will be arriving!!!

Nervousness is also very much on the horizon and as you guessed fear is too. I guess it is a pretty normal reaction when you are going through some serious changes.  I guess it didn’t hit me until now that  what I have been planning and rummaging in my mind might actually manifest into my reality and not into a the sixth dimension episode.

I know most people will not tell you this. Most people try to conceal, or hold together a professional image, and that everything is working according to plan. Sorry, but I don’t think I can. I am not most people and I suck at concealing certain emotions. On this occasion the emotion being fear. I don’t mean that I feel I am incompetent. Not in the slightest.

” No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” Eleanor Roosevelt

I believe that despite this particular quote, fear has felt very real to me. After 5 weeks of preparation,organised and premeditated the sequences to this launch every now and again I feel the fear and it’s almost real. but what do I have to lose. So far that has been the motivation. This is the full-time job I have been looking for. It provides me with a sense of passion and purpose that I seek.

So I acknowledge this fear, but I don’t necessarily accept it as my personal reality. Accepting it, might actually mean my personal defeat. And though monetizing has not quite come into place, going back to waking up everyday, on automatic, to a 9-5 is and will be the death of me. I will slowly return to my zombie days. I have never felt more alive, though afraid. Maybe what I should do is; as in the words of Susan Jeffers “feel the Fear and do it anyway”.

Mathy – Excited and Afraid